Felt this to my bones as I was reading it, Michelle. I struggled with similar feelings when I moved countries and left my family home, and even more so after a couple of years had passed. The freedom of being unburdened by the daily family issues, responsibilities and dramas suddenly came with so, so much guilt. I'm back home now for a while and honestly can't believe I missed all of this so much, so yeah, Taylor was right haha nostalgia is a mind trick!
Sending you a warm hug Siham! ❤️ It's such a strange, floating feeling, isn't it? I'm beyond happy settling into this life with my boyfriend, yet I felt such guilt at the same time. Slowly, I'm getting there. Hope you're enjoying your time back home now.
This hit deeply Michelle — what a beautiful piece. It’s been almost 9 years since I moved out with my now husband and nostalgia stills hits me square in the face some days about how family life used to be, and of how I didn’t recognise all the ‘lasts’ at the time x
Thanks so much for your kind words Jenna ❤️ I'm so glad I'm not the only one with these thoughts. We're all too easily caught up in the excitement of the future that the present was hard to soak up at the time. I felt it even when we all flocked home for Mother's Day recently: it's magical to all be together, but heart-wrenching when we return to our separate lives.
This was a wonderful read, and I can relate to the complicated feelings of being the elder sibling, the one everyone relies on. I am glad you've made peace with them.
I so agree with what you said about nostalgia. It's strange how our minds work, how we appreciate a situation more when we are out of it.
Michelle this is stunningly written, and alllll too relevant to my life right now. Sort of, in reverse, but gave me a real insight. My older sister is moving far away, and it’s been difficult to try and understand how it must feel for her to do that and the difficulty of being the first to leave. My heart aches because she’s going and it’s a change, but hers will ache just as much for the same reasons. Thank you for writing this Michelle, I really needed it 💗💗
Thank you Ella!! Moving is such a strange time, I feel like I've really gone through it on the emotional scale. It's odd because I feel more deeply for this move (a 20-minute walk from our family home!) than I did when I moved across the world in my twenties 😂 Sending you and your sister so much love, patience and compassion ❤️
This is like you've bottled my thoughts and written them coherently. I felt the exact same way after moving out of my mum's house and still, five years on, I have a pit in my stomach whenever I leave hers after a meal or just popping in. I yearn for the years I was part of the everyday routine there.
And similarly - I'm already feeling nostalgic and sad about moving out of the flat we're living in. We've not even found a house yet but I'm already dreading how much I'll miss this little flat and all the memories we've made here. How weird is the human brain?!
I'm so glad there's somebody that feels the same way. It's like a strange, in-between haze, isn't it? I know in time it'll feel more normal, but I can't help but miss the way I felt at my parents', all the good and bad included.
Aaahh I'm so excited for you and Aidan to start your house ownership journey! Soak up every last moment, and take lots of photos!
This is so beautiful Michelle ♥️ our minds always are such tricky things to master. But, it is such a joy to miss things in a happy way, the memories formed still go strong!
Felt this to my bones as I was reading it, Michelle. I struggled with similar feelings when I moved countries and left my family home, and even more so after a couple of years had passed. The freedom of being unburdened by the daily family issues, responsibilities and dramas suddenly came with so, so much guilt. I'm back home now for a while and honestly can't believe I missed all of this so much, so yeah, Taylor was right haha nostalgia is a mind trick!
Sending you a warm hug Siham! ❤️ It's such a strange, floating feeling, isn't it? I'm beyond happy settling into this life with my boyfriend, yet I felt such guilt at the same time. Slowly, I'm getting there. Hope you're enjoying your time back home now.
This hit deeply Michelle — what a beautiful piece. It’s been almost 9 years since I moved out with my now husband and nostalgia stills hits me square in the face some days about how family life used to be, and of how I didn’t recognise all the ‘lasts’ at the time x
Thanks so much for your kind words Jenna ❤️ I'm so glad I'm not the only one with these thoughts. We're all too easily caught up in the excitement of the future that the present was hard to soak up at the time. I felt it even when we all flocked home for Mother's Day recently: it's magical to all be together, but heart-wrenching when we return to our separate lives.
That’s it! I don’t think it will ever change, I think it’s just something we have to flow with and know that some days will feel harder than others x
This was a wonderful read, and I can relate to the complicated feelings of being the elder sibling, the one everyone relies on. I am glad you've made peace with them.
I so agree with what you said about nostalgia. It's strange how our minds work, how we appreciate a situation more when we are out of it.
Thank you so much Epsita! ❤️ It's such a complicated role to play, isn't it?
Very much so, esp. the feeling of being needed by your younger siblings but also realizing it may not last forever.
Michelle this is stunningly written, and alllll too relevant to my life right now. Sort of, in reverse, but gave me a real insight. My older sister is moving far away, and it’s been difficult to try and understand how it must feel for her to do that and the difficulty of being the first to leave. My heart aches because she’s going and it’s a change, but hers will ache just as much for the same reasons. Thank you for writing this Michelle, I really needed it 💗💗
Thank you Ella!! Moving is such a strange time, I feel like I've really gone through it on the emotional scale. It's odd because I feel more deeply for this move (a 20-minute walk from our family home!) than I did when I moved across the world in my twenties 😂 Sending you and your sister so much love, patience and compassion ❤️
a really enjoyable read Michelle!!💗
Thanks so much Michela, you angel!
This is so beautiful Michelle
Thanks so much for reading, Izzy! ❤️
This is like you've bottled my thoughts and written them coherently. I felt the exact same way after moving out of my mum's house and still, five years on, I have a pit in my stomach whenever I leave hers after a meal or just popping in. I yearn for the years I was part of the everyday routine there.
And similarly - I'm already feeling nostalgic and sad about moving out of the flat we're living in. We've not even found a house yet but I'm already dreading how much I'll miss this little flat and all the memories we've made here. How weird is the human brain?!
I'm so glad there's somebody that feels the same way. It's like a strange, in-between haze, isn't it? I know in time it'll feel more normal, but I can't help but miss the way I felt at my parents', all the good and bad included.
Aaahh I'm so excited for you and Aidan to start your house ownership journey! Soak up every last moment, and take lots of photos!
This is so beautiful Michelle ♥️ our minds always are such tricky things to master. But, it is such a joy to miss things in a happy way, the memories formed still go strong!
Thanks so much Allie ❤️ (So good to see you, too!) Honestly, the human brain is straight up trickery, isn't it?!